~Blessings~

I can feel the overwhelming warmth of the sun beating on my face through the cafe window. I find myself melding into the chair, savoring my coffee and the sound of the gentle folk music playing throughout.
Its such a sweet thing, feeling the sun on your face. Warming your soul.  Fragrant aroma of coffee filling your nostrils and the gentleness of the music moving in your spirit. The taste of the mocha lingering on your taste bud's.

It's amazing how we can absorb so much in a single moment. In this very moment, I am reminded of how blessed I truly am. What a wonderful feeling to bask in the sweet grace and tender mercy of God.
Reminded of a life I came from and a life I built with, through and in Him.

My heart is filled with the sweet, sweet joy that only my savior could give me. Freely! Not for anything I've done.

The song "Amazing" by Aerosmith just popped into my head. "It's Amazing, in the blink of an eye, you finally see the light." It's true. That's how quickly your life can change. Well that's how quickly mine did. 
Wow this is one of my first reflections on how I've really changed. It's inspiring even to me. The hardest thing is you have to want to make changes. It's not easy to change overnight. Also I will always make mistakes. But at the end of the day. I remember that what Grace is for!
Well with a grateful heart I give thanks. "For all good things come from above."

Complicated

As I sit alone in a hotel lobby, I wonder when I got so impatient. When did I allow people to bother me. How am I so sensitive to things that people do? I am annoyed, aggravated, dissapointed, frustrated and sad all at once. Mostly at myself.
I don't know when I became so intolerant of other people. Their behaviors for instance, do I project an entitled attitude? I am asking cause I am offended by this in someone else. Do I present this same type of attitude?
If so I am sorry, I am utterly offended and consumed with annoyance at the present moment.

Do I go through life like this? Not caring how I come across to others. Not sorry for any inconvenience that I may cause. No worries of how I may impact your world.

This is an obvious hurdle in my life. But what roads brought me to this? I have always been so open minded.

What's changed? Well, a lot I guess.
My beliefs, thoughts, attitude, emotions. I am constantly refocusing my attention on how I can be a better person, but if I cant even tolerate the intolerable, how can I strive to be better??